Doesn't it seem like days will fly and you look back and think about what you have done through out that 24 hour period and wonder if you actually accomplished anything? I am embarrassed to say too many days like this have come and gone so they are without number.
My mind not only goes to the never ending kid and home list,(Which I never seem to finish) but it goes beyond that. It wanders to my far reaching aspirations. Now, I am not blaming my undone dream list on my children or any other wonderful distraction in my life, but it can be directly connected to my lack of ambition.
Funny thing huh? These dreams are what I have wanted for a long time, but I, and only I, hold myself back. I think it is a fear of failure, lack of ability, and of course the oh so familiar companion of self doubt........ I am ready to bid farewell to these unwanted counterparts. I acknowledge this will be a long drawn out break up. There will be times when I will go crawling back to our dysfunctional relationship just so I can be on familiar ground. But with each fall back I will grow stronger and hopefully not stay for long, till eventually they will be merely "EX"s.
It's fun to read your blog. I haven't updated mine forever. I know what you mean about the self-doubt, etc. No more! You are one of the most talented people I know!
ReplyDeleteFunny I am in that same relationship! Heres to a clean break!
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